Two Steps Forward, One Step Back

"But I am not capable of love..."

"Then its going to be a very unique experience."

-Data and Guinan

At work, the Android project that was basically canceled for good is now an enormously high priority project that needs to be done yesterday with millions of dollars on the line.  This is the same project that we could have done, and re-done, three times by now if they hadn't constantly stopped and started it.  The dumbasses making these decisions are above me by like 3 levels in the food chain.  I have no words.

At [relationship noun], I just had another relationship end.  Again, didn't write about it here until now, thanks to Chris.  It was growing obvious that the relationship wouldn't work.  I was second-guessing myself about ending it, though, because I seem to go through a lot of girls, however dragging my feet only prolonged things until she was the one to end it.  We'll call her girlfriend N-1.  You know whats weird?  I'm pining more for girlfriend N-2.  I thought I had disabled all of the machinery in my mind that facilitates these useless attachments to girls, but I must have missed some.  I'm pretty sure, at this point, that we've been broken up for almost as long as the relationship lasted, and I still miss her.  It was strange.  N-1 was a computer science major, and we shared a lot of common interests, but didn't have much of a connection.  N-2 had very few common interests with me, but I felt a very strong connection with her; when she wasn't trying to make me drink beer or try foods I'm allergic to or dragging me to a gay club, everything felt right.  Maybe I'll hit the salsa scene or something;  I don't know.  I'm pretty busy with this damn startup, and I don't feel motivated to make another list of 100 things I have to do right now that will change my life.  The only thing I'm doing is lifting again.  Inspired by a random post on reddit chronicling something Jerry Seinfeld allegedly said, I stuck a calendar page on my wall and mark off every day I lift.  My goal is to fill the calendar with red ink.  I'm not going to worry about the perfect form, or if I'm eating enough, or pushing myself hard enough, or if its the right time of day...I'm just going to make sure I lift, consistently, every day.  Fun fact:  at one point, I was trying lift every day, meditate every day, drink fruit smoothies every day, walk up 10 flights of stairs 3 times a day, do aerobic workouts every day, work on learning Spanish every day, and also practice salsa every day.  And I had to save every receipt for everything I bought, everywhere, and enter that into a spreadsheet.  So we are scaling back our goals a little.

At other work, with this startup, my business partner seems to have forgotten what guaranteed payments are and why we were going to have them.  This is unfortunate because the lawyers are waiting for a response to an email asking what amounts we want to set, and when I discussed the amounts with her, she suddenly wanted to re-do them.  You could technically say it is my fault for not taking better notes during our meeting with the accountant.  So now we are basically repeating an entire conversation again.  I'm doing it differently this time though.  I'm just patiently explaining shit over and over again, and letting her figure stuff out instead of just handing her the answer.  I waiver every other week between wanting to kill the partnership, and being certain that this is going to work out great and we will make a lot of money.  Regardless of the outcome, I am thrilled to be attempting something because it has been a phenomenal learning experience.

In other news, it has come to my attention that DC asked some artists to draw Harley Quinn naked in a bathtub, or something, and now I guess a lot of people on the internet have opinions on that, and its supposed to be an attack on women.  Let me leave you with this thought:  what if they had asked for a picture of Joker naked in the exact same way in a bathtub.  Would thousands of men be crying out at the injustice?  I think not.  Is my argument invalid because things are different for women, or some nonsense argument that involves the words 'patriarchy' or 'society' or 'misogyny'?  If so, I call bullshit.  If you want equality, the idea of Harley Quinn naked in the bathrub AND the Joker naked in a bathtub must both be evil/horrible/degrading.  Otherwise, neither of them are.

I, for the record, am not offended by either character naked in the bathtub.  But I probably don't have to tell you which one I wouldn't waste money on the comic for.